Have you ever felt like a whore??

NOWitall

NOWitall

Active Member
Im becomeing truley dismayed.
many many people call me friend.
yet they never call unless they want something.
i wouldnt mind if they just asked.
im a fairly friendly person, well i was before i got married.
but they feel the need to con me.
sayin shit like
hey why dont you come hang out and have a few beers.
and when i get there its all, ohhh i forgot my X is having trouble you mind lookin at it.
or
hey mind if i come over and hang out.
oh you dont have weed see you later.

or some of my favorites. when a lady is all
ohh ill be stopping through for a few days lets hang out, oh and could you find me good smoke?

you know what. fuck em all. i will go back.
ill go back to who i was.
the old me, he never got fucked over.
he bled alot, but he bled others more.
i thought it would help me
being nice
i thought for sure if i was truely nice and kind, people would surely appreciate that.
but all they want is one more sucker
one more chump for them to fuck with
well u know what
this all day sucker is down to the soggy white stick

my depression, self loathing, sadness, and loss. have all finally gotten bad enough for me to make usefull.
its all going in to anger, every last erg.
rage and hatred, my old friends.
i havent seen them in awhile, and its nice to have em back in town.
it might not be right.
it might not be healthy.
but i can deal with em
i cant take sadness, jealousy, self doubt.

so i am. going back in time to the days of yor.
back to hating the world, cause as long as you can hate the whole world, you never have to worry.

in the last 3 weeks ive discovered that not one mutherfucker i know has honor.
not one woman, not one man.

so im gonna hate em all, hate is very powerfull. itll keep you warm on those cold nights.

i didnt want it to be this way.
i tried so hard.
till it fuckin hurt, and it does, all the time
ive asked for a second helpin of shit sandwich so many times ive started to like it
and you know what, im full.
i would rather be the nice me.
but his world is full of hurt and disappointment.

so thats just it.
if your someone i know out there, please try and understand. im not being a dick because of something you did.
its a survival trait.
and in order to survive, i had to die.

so to all whom i may effect
i apologize

and may bob have mercy on whatever peices of my soul that might be left
 
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Michael Phelps

Well-Known Member
I feel ya man, me and my roomate/cousin came to the conclusion that a friendship isnt worth it when your putting a 100% into it and they are returning a meazlie 30%. Thats when things start to become expected, and when someone starts expecting things it gets to be to much
 
locoman610

locoman610

Well-Known Member
used to feel the same way but guess what teh world don't really care if your pissed at it.

Life is too short to have that much hate

JMO
 
jact55

jact55

Well-Known Member
i generally hate everybody, ok not hate, but i would rather be by myself for the most part. friends are people just waiting to fuck you over somehow, whether they intend to or not. i would rather dissapoint myself, then have others dissapoint me, lol.
 
OnIslandTime

OnIslandTime

Member
For the most part I hang with family. Seems nowadays that is all you can trust.(and sometimes not even then) My husband is my smoking partner and best friend. Him and my kids...I don't need much more than that
 
fininho

fininho

Well-Known Member
I have a couple a friends that I know I can trust.. But that's like 3 or 4, to me that's a lot actually..
Time to listen to some metal NOWitall..
 
ruderalis88

ruderalis88

Well-Known Member
i feel ya man, sounds cliched and all but i've been through a lot of the same shit you're writing about.
i did the same thing, i said i'm going back to being me and y'all can fuck your own arses and i tell you what it worked out so fucking well i'd never have believed it
now i'm the nice me but with the hard me all ready to step up when someone's takin a loan.

good luck to ya, i really genuinely hope things get better and you're happy soon

peace
 
mj320002

mj320002

Well-Known Member
Yeah I only have 5 people in the world I know I can trust. My parents, a cousin, and two friends. I used to think there were more but so far those are the only people who have actually shown me they care about me like I do about them. I'm still going to be nice to everyone though, including the people who have screwed me over. I'm just not going to go out of my way for them, or feel bad if I screw them over in the process of getting something for myself. I know they will show me the same halfhearted respect.


fininho said:
I have a couple a friends that I know I can trust.. But that's like 3 or 4, to me that's a lot actually..
Time to listen to some metal NOWitall..
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peacemane420

peacemane420

Well-Known Member
turn all that hate into somethin else!
fuel!!!
rock it out on the drums or drums. surf, run, work out, skate, learn something!
generate all that emotion into doin somethin good

things get better. i know you thinkin "ya right!" cuz i hate when people tell that to me when im down. but dude things really do get better. its just a bad patch right now so look forward to the future
 
newb101

newb101

New Member
yup someone is alwayz lookin for a easier way and whats easier than a nice friend with a great heart. easy target! sux but alwayz seems to be the case.
 
SmokeyMcChokey

SmokeyMcChokey

Well-Known Member
yea i bet it has happened to all of us. everytime things start going well you get shitted on. thats why i literally trust two people my sis an my mom. everyone else has shown me that they just aren't willing to think about others before they act. its a shame people just dont care anymore. i suppose to have acquaintances is better than true friends at least you know not to expect an acquaitance to go out of their way to help you out like you have done for others so often
 
Woodstock.Hippie

Woodstock.Hippie

New Member
I believe it is better to give than to receive.

edit:

There is much more to life than stuff.

Just ask McGyver when he got trapped somewhere.

How many people will wish you hope before you feel it?

Hippie Hint: the above question is a math problem.
 
NOWitall

NOWitall

Active Member
oh i agree wholeheartedly, about life getting better

or i did once upon a time

it is better to give than to recieve
but ive been giving without recieving

in the last year, everything has gone down hill.
not one thing has worked out.
and everytime i feel some tiny bit of hope.
it turns out that hope was actually a falling boulder.
but thats good, it helps remind me of cetain inescapable facts about my life.
its only when i forget those things, and allow foolish hope for the future.
that i get shit on.

so heres where im at
im gonna do my thing, im gonna head in my direction.
and if anybody stands in my way again.
they wont stand anymore.

you know that old line
how women just want some sweet guy with a sense of humor blahy blah blah.
BULLSHIT.
thats what women say to feel better about who they really want.
the muscely meth addict thats cheated on eveyone hes ever been with.
that asshole that has nothing going but enough alcohol tolerance to wear you down.

but again, its ok.
my life has just come out this way.
its not really sudden.
it wasnt a change.
its always been like this.
for 25 years i had a positive attitude
that things would get better
hell they couldnt get worse
then i got married and everything was great
now five years later
life has proved
the world deserves my ire
everylast bit of it

say i should do something constructive with my hate
who's to say beating my enemies to death with a rusty 2x4 would be constructive
i personally beleive it would be very cathartic
you wanna know what purpose my hate serves
it protects me, like some warm blanket
keeps me wrapped in that shell
and hopefully people will see the rage in my eyes
and stop bothering me
stop thinkin ill forgive em
start understanding they are the sheep
and that i wore my sheepskin so long, wont they be surprised when i hamstring em

its like that line from the watchmen

im not trapped here with you
your trapped here with me
 
naked gardener

naked gardener

Active Member
So, when I originally posted this--I hadn't read your most recent post--which def. makes mine appear rather trite in light of the true depth of your anger right now...but here it is anyway--and I truly hope this negativity passes for you..

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I think, if you have even one good and true friend, you've got something great.

I'm starting to think your experience and feelings are more common than you may you realize for people w those certain connections, or skills...you're not at all alone in your loneliness --just don't get bitter & wallow in it---falling into a dark well of hatred, imo, is probably not the change you need right now.

I do know just what you mean about the BS, "hey what are you doing--wanna hang out?" when all they really need to say "can ya help me out?"--it would be much less patronizing that way.

I have only 2 true, good and longtime friends, and I used to feel like there was something wrong with that--but now I realize how fortunate it is...

I think in this line of work or life, that ** identity ** will often trump all others. It is unfortunate--but do not take it personally. Like some others said--family really is where it's at.

& Fuck those people who don't have honor--but don't corrupt your own ways in reaction to theirs.

Cheer up...The world is full of assholes--if you are not one of them, that is something to celebrate!
 
True Stoner

True Stoner

Active Member
When i lived in my old city for 15 years i had tons of friends and knew tons of ppl as i was selling shit so u intend to meet a lot of ppl, now that im 32 and i live in a totally differant city , i have only minimal friends...usually just ppl i work with or see at the gym. Other then that i keep to myself and i really dont have ppl over at my house so thats how i stay away from the bullshit everyday!!
 
Big P

Big P

Well-Known Member
the trick is to walk a fine line, be kind but ready to cut anyone off who trys to press thier luck,


dont be an asshole but at the same time dont be a push over

its natural for humans to eventually take advantage of you out of sheer lazyness if you let them


and remeber its only the squeky wheel that gets any grease, so make you opinions and needs be known loud and clear and someone will grease you up:bigjoint:


everything begins with you
 
Straight up G

Straight up G

New Member
NOWitall said:
Im becomeing truley dismayed.
many many people call me friend.
yet they never call unless they want something.
i wouldnt mind if they just asked.
im a fairly friendly person, well i was before i got married.
but they feel the need to con me.
sayin shit like
hey why dont you come hang out and have a few beers.
and when i get there its all, ohhh i forgot my X is having trouble you mind lookin at it.
or
hey mind if i come over and hang out.
oh you dont have weed see you later.

or some of my favorites. when a lady is all
ohh ill be stopping through for a few days lets hang out, oh and could you find me good smoke?

you know what. fuck em all. i will go back.
ill go back to who i was.
the old me, he never got fucked over.
he bled alot, but he bled others more.
i thought it would help me
being nice
i thought for sure if i was truely nice and kind, people would surely appreciate that.
but all they want is one more sucker
one more chump for them to fuck with
well u know what
this all day sucker is down to the soggy white stick

my depression, self loathing, sadness, and loss. have all finally gotten bad enough for me to make usefull.
its all going in to anger, every last erg.
rage and hatred, my old friends.
i havent seen them in awhile, and its nice to have em back in town.
it might not be right.
it might not be healthy.
but i can deal with em
i cant take sadness, jealousy, self doubt.

so i am. going back in time to the days of yor.
back to hating the world, cause as long as you can hate the whole world, you never have to worry.

in the last 3 weeks ive discovered that not one mutherfucker i know has honor.
not one woman, not one man.

so im gonna hate em all, hate is very powerfull. itll keep you warm on those cold nights.

i didnt want it to be this way.
i tried so hard.
till it fuckin hurt, and it does, all the time
ive asked for a second helpin of shit sandwich so many times ive started to like it
and you know what, im full.
i would rather be the nice me.
but his world is full of hurt and disappointment.

so thats just it.
if your someone i know out there, please try and understand. im not being a dick because of something you did.
its a survival trait.
and in order to survive, i had to die.

so to all whom i may effect
i apologize

and may bob have mercy on whatever peices of my soul that might be left
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carry on boosting cars then?, your post is very unclear..
 
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