This is EXACTLY where I am at as well. I have to micro-dose or else it's just weird and unpleasant, mind is racing and not in a good way.
I've liked the Alan Watts reference. Meditation is just a great exercise. Calm down the mind. But don't try it on weed, that doesn't work at all.
CBD is a totally different story. Simply relaxing, none of the weird shit. I have to experiment more with combining lots of CBD with a little THC; need a good CBD flower first.
Also I like to have a drink (or two), and that really does not go together with the weed, as we all know.
@Cotyledon420
14 grams a day is an ungodly amount. 0.2 grams would already be too much for me, and it's certainly enough for a lot of people to get them baked good. The amount you are smoking is unreal, and most of it is not even processed by the body, it just goes down the drain (literally).
I would cut it down to manageable amounts if I where you.