I'm feeling Manic

hotrodharley

hotrodharley

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dtp5150 said:
My step father robbed me of tools, picked and chose my possessions to leave outside in a rainstorm, admitted to murdering someone over a stereo, stole my mothers life and her business and her house, is a wanna-be hells angels gang member, would steal coke spoons from restaurants, has been stealing pg&e for the last 30 years, and now refuses to answer my phone call asking for my stuff back.

What should I do? I am going to leave this country. Should I not seek justice for my mother and myself? Ive called a few organizations, they cannot guarantee my safety. I dont think this is going to end well.

He is the only person to ever give me a bloody lip. When I was 11 or 12 he got drunk and called me a pussy and decided to teach me how to fight, by head butting me. He would also kick me with cowboy boots.

He "disowned" his first born daughter and killed her mother by getting her hooked on heroin. I had an ex girlfriend lie about birth control and then had an abortion, so I'm almost a baby killer and worse.

He has a brother he stole things from and hasnt talked to for 25 years. That same brother ashed a cigarette on my head when I was 8 yrs old, and would throw me around by my underwear.

He visited my house that I bought, told me I dont make money. My real father was removed from my life at a young age. I was a half-black step child raised in a racist house.

I have zero patience left

This post is a cry for help. Ive tried killing myself by slitting my wrists already, still have scars. My mother told me to lie about it to people
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First, please try to understand all you described is not your fault in any way, shape, form or fashion. That is important. Your racial makeup is irrelevant to you I hope. I really hope that any teasing or ridicule about that is flushed when you consider the source. I won't refer you to God or any church but would encourage you to seek professional counseling. You may have done that before but as you age and get wiser it can be more beneficial. You sound like you have your head right, despite the shit this bunch of jackasses did to you.

Additionally, always beware of the possibility of addiction. If your mother died as the result of one (may God Bless and rest her soul) be aware that you may have inherited that trait. By avoiding addictive substances your life will only be easier. May God Bless you too.
 
Doer

Doer

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hotrodharley said:
BTW God will take care of that sorry sonofabitch in ways you could only imagine. You will see over time.
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If you kill him, "God" will sort it out? All his fuck ups will be God produced? We make up God, so we can damn people. Too funny.
 
hotrodharley

hotrodharley

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Doer said:
If you kill him, "God" will sort it out? All his fuck ups will be God produced? We make up God, so we can damn people. Too funny.
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I said to kill him? Learn to read. You're not funny but illiterate. God, karma, a universal power. Something is far smarter and more powerful than you. Thank God on all counts. Actually even a kid is probably smarter than you but whatever. You have the answers, why look here? To mock? Teach us, oh Great One. We await your vast wisdom.
 
Doer

Doer

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hotrodharley said:
I said to kill him? Learn to read. You're not funny but illiterate. God, karma, a universal power. Something is far smarter and more powerful than you. Thank God on all counts. Actually even a kid is probably smarter than you but whatever. You have the answers, why look here? To mock? Teach us, oh Great One. We await your vast wisdom.
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I'm a staunch skeptic that can find no basis for God, but human belief. I love the Christian insult spew. The questioning of Why. Why not? I'm not mocking or deserve it from you. Christian and thin skin go together. You were just damning the guy, pridefully. God will get him, just wait and see. So, wow, I respond in forum whether anyone likes it or not. Constitutional Rights and all that.

I'll make plain. I'm questioning your beliefs, OK? No hell. No salvation, just the experience of Now. Everything is only right now. Granted that experience can seem quite religious and coming from outside of you. I assure you, it is not.

So, not vast anything. Just a skeptic that doesn't mind saying so. As to why I said what I said? You are the why. I'm responding to your preaching. Is nasty goading all you have? You were so full of religion, just before.

The presence of Now.

Remember Now, and keep it, wholly.
 
hotrodharley

hotrodharley

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Doer said:
I'm a staunch skeptic that can find no basis for God, but human belief. I love the Christian insult spew. The questioning of Why. Why not? I'm not mocking or deserve it from you. Christian and thin skin go together. You were just damning the guy, pridefully. God will get him, just wait and see. So, wow, I respond in forum whether anyone likes it or not. Constitutional Rights and all that.

I'll make plain. I'm questioning your beliefs, OK? No hell. No salvation, just the experience of Now. Everything is only right now. Granted that experience can seem quite religious and coming from outside of you. I assure you, it is not.

So, not vast anything. Just a skeptic that doesn't mind saying so. As to why I said what I said? You are the why. I'm responding to your preaching. Is nasty goading all you have? You were so full of religion, just before.

The presence of Now.

Remember Now, and keep it, wholly.
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Wear a hat if you go outside. I hear there are woodpeckers out in your area.
 
Doer

Doer

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hotrodharley said:
Wear a hat if you go outside. I hear there are woodpeckers out in your area.
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And that is supposed to have some kind of meaning? It just seems like a silly, passive aggressive way to throw in a petty insult. Got that from your Religion, did you?
 
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