Just My Thoughts

I would like to share whats on my mind for anyone who wants to listen.

I really dont know how to start this so im just gonna write in no specific order. Im loosing hope for humanity. Ever since the first time ive taken mushrooms I feel like im evolving so fast. The more intelligent I feel the less social I want to be. And the funny thing is I feel like there is so much unexplained answers. Try explaining this to someone. I dont understand why people are so oblivious to the real issues in the world. I cant stand being in public anymore. I see through everybody. People disgust me. The world disgusts me (you must undertand I speak for the majority of people there are the occasions). I use to share with outsiders my views to try and help them, but ive come to relize there is no point in talking. People will do what they want anyways. It gets to the point where I start questioning my sanity.

I use to have it all. Whatever I wanted I went and bought. Now I have nothing. No car, Phone, Job, Income. But I do not desire any of those. I do however have a loving girlfriend who respects my views and supports me. I have my friends. I play my bass guitar in a band. I dont work nor do I want to. Working in this culture is a waste to a mind and body. Everything that is taught in schools are pointless. I speak from plenty of experience. Ive learned more by teaching myself through books and online help.

I beleive in fate. This is happening to me for a reason. I feel like im going to be used one day for something important. But then a part of me wonders if sometimes im wasting my life. Maybe im waiting for the world to catch up. Ive tried posting things on facebook to make people think but thats useless. People would rather comment on something so unimportant. I think sometimes I should be trying to change the world. I guess I feel stuck. Another part of me is waiting for 2012 to happen. I dont expect the worlds end. But I do beleive the world will go through a jurastic change. I hope it will. I cant watch people live like this much longer.

I could go on and on...I dont know what im looking for. I dont expect anyone to know how I feel either. Its almost like I was givin a blessing and a curse. There really is no way to go back. Im not crazy. In fact I dont know how that word can even be used in a world such as this. I want to live a righteous life And I strive for that everyday. I cant be fake to my true feelings anymore which is why im in the spot im in...

I guess my ultimate thoughts would be whats next? now what? Whats next for me other than the afterlife? Do I just keep living this way? Is there a third option?

One last note please only serious responses. Thanks for reading

Your right, people these days are greedy and only look out for their interest! I sometimes.es have given up on humanity as well. I keep in my wallet a stack if $2 dollar bills folded up precisely in a bowtie and anyone under the age of 18 chivalrous enough to hold the door for me or my family gets rewarded with one. Maybe it'll change one persons outlook on how to treat others!

"The more intelligent I feel the less social I want to be."

completely normal feeling for someone with high intelligence. Your not the only person in the universe that feels this way.

I too feel like I'm not a social person and its mainly because I tend to be more intelligent than most.


It's a normal feeling for intelligent people.. your not crazy.


I'm not sure how old you are.. but I was born in '82 - my generation lived a certain way you know what I mean? As I've gotten older in life, I've too realized that humanity is changing.. but its not the older generations, its mainly the younger newer generations that are changing. As I look at these new generations of young people coming into this world.. I too can see the difference between their generation and my generation. It's completely different between the way they live and the way my generation lived and did things.

What I'm experiencing.. and your experiencing.. is the viewing of the change of the human race. The new generations of people are living longer.. and its been proven because I've seen the charts of how the human race brings each new generation to life.. and how different each generation is, as well as charts showing that the new generations of people will live longer.. than people that were born during my generation. It's definately a scary thing to witness.. no doubt about that, but its just another variable of life as humans.

The new generations these days, they don't get out like my generation did. What I mean by that is.. kids these days are completely spoiled with all the new electronics, and with things like facebook and myspace, etc - you not only take the person out of the reality of meeting people face to face.. but IMO, your also degrading the value of the word "friend". This is also another phenomenon that's taken place over the last generation or so.. and its just another cause of the change in human evolution.. especially for the new generations being born at the moment. I mean, I wish I could live to see the Earth in the next 200 years.. just to see how far technology is capable of going.

But anyhow, I don't want to sit here and write a book about human evolution and change.. I just want you to understand that its completely normal to feel the way you feel.



peace.

Well I understand your place, and no you are not going crazy. But you are standing on a very pivotal position in your life, tread lightly, do not make quick moves, think things through.

I understand this because I remember going through it. Taking time and moving through it slowly you can move into a beautiful life of understanding of yourself and mankind.

I was not so lucky, I had no one to understand and it happened so quickly that I had no time to seek help. But the great thing is that I came through, a little scuffed up though.

Life is absolutly beautiful, I have learned to live in the now and still be productive. Everyday is a blessing and beauty abounds.

At times I still have tough times, but it really cannot affect me for long. The understanding of human physiology is quite insane once you pass over to the other side and look back.

Human minds have this pumped into them from a young age by there parents and most people that they have contact with.

I can elaborate later, but just be careful right now, like I said you are very vunerable at this time.

you really are not alone brother, there are a lot of ignorant stupid people out there, i often wish i could do away with all of them. but society does not allow that, you are stuck with the ignorance and you must might a way to deal with it or it will swallow you whole....

fatality said:

you really are not alone brother, there are a lot of ignorant stupid people out there, i often wish i could do away with all of them. but society does not allow that, you are stuck with the ignorance and you must might a way to deal with it or it will swallow you whole....

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this is one of the many reasons I smoke cannabis..

The world is disguisting. Work is a burden. Wise men of all religions would say you are searching for God.
Thats for you to decide. Untill then just keep one thing in mind.

Expectations are resentments under construction.

boneheadbob said:

The world is disguisting. Work is a burden. Wise men of all religions would say you are searching for God.
Thats for you to decide. Untill then just keep one thing in mind.

Expectations are resentments under construction.

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My friend the world is not disgusting, there are many forces at work that may make it resemble that though.

The world is beautiful, if one looks at only the bad then that is what he will see.

It is just a matter of your perspective. Even in the most horrid squaller, the beauty of a flower abounds.

I visualize it as a great conveyor running through me, I pick up the good and let the bad continue to be dropped off.

Yes I do know the stench of rotten thoughts are there and sometimes have to be dealt with, but I tend to spend as much time in the positive realm as possible.

This is the learning process that we all must go through, some learn it others do not.

I do not want people to think that I am all holier than all, but I do want people to understand that you can have happiness in every situation.

I should have made myself more clear. When I think of "the world" all the evil stuff comes to mind, things that are at odds with the Creator of the Universe. All of the beautiful stuff is still there although the spirit of lawlessness or the spirit of just plain old evil are fouling things up.

boneheadbob said:

I should have made myself more clear. When I think of "the world" all the evil stuff comes to mind, things that are at odds with the Creator of the Universe. All of the beautiful stuff is still there although the spirit of lawlessness or the spirit of just plain old evil are fouling things up.

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I kinda thought that, because from what I know of you that first post did not sound like you.

This one does, we must do everything possible at all times to combat evil.

I remember an episode of House where a genius utilized robo tripping to lower his intelligence which helped him tolerate other people, namely his wife that he loved dearly, but couldn't stand to be around because of her lower intellect.

Not suggesting anyone do this, just that this is a common enough theme among intelligent people.

I would like to say thanks for the responses. It honestly brought a smile to my face. I know now I can come on here and talk to some of you about things, and can expect a solid answer/opinion. Also to know that im not the only one out there who thinks like me.

I dont just see the evil. I do see that there is beauty in this world...For me ive found it in creativity, Love, Nature, Music, The unknown, And just Fixing my problems.

Expect more post...There are still many things I need to learn. Its interesting how this works...I indirectly figured out something about myself from your post as they were not directly related. I love how that happens Thanks again