MDMA Addiction

For the last 11 days I've been on a severe molly binge. It started on the 12th when I received a little over a ounce of 86% pure MDMA from the Netherlands. I took 0.40 orally and sniffed 0.25 when I first got it and it was the hardest I ever rolled. ever since then for the past 11 maybe 12 days I've been taking nearly 2-3 grams a day. Yes I'm being serious.

I had 28.12g to start with and now I only have 3.72 grams. I don't even roll anymore, I'm a wreck right now. I am literally thinking of suicide when I'm out of this molly. I haven't slept in almost 8 days... I cry all the time, my emotions are out of control and I honestly feel like I am dying. I can feel my brain getting these electrical shocks when I
stand up.
WTF Is wrong with me!?!?! I need to HELP ASAP!!!! I cannot stop myself from re-dosing, it is literally impossible. I'm so obsessed with M, it's on my mind 24 fucking 7!!!! I haven't had a meal in almost 2 weeks besides fruits.
I can literally see myself freaking TF out when I'm out of these moon rocks and I want this fucking shitty ass world we live in to just fucking die.

I'm wanted in the State Of VA for almost 7 felonies some of u may know my story (rory420) and a few others maybe.
THIS IS IT, THIS IS MY CALL FOR HELP, I'm a grown fucking man and drugs have killed my whole life.

HOW DO I GET HELP PLEASE FUCKING HELP ME

I'm crying again, I can't take this shit anymore, I'm literally thinking that if I cant get anymore M I'll take my life, somebody help me

I don't even get any euphoria from it anymore jsut a body high. I think I should be dead with the amount of Molly I've taken in the past 12 days. Here goes 2 grams.

Tolerance builds quick for mdma. You need to get some food in your system and sleep my friend. Your mental state seems pretty fucked up right now.

sorry to sound like a cliché but get to a NA meeting. you've done the hard part admitting you got the problem now do some action. there will be people there that have been in your shoes and help not judge you. you need face to face help and that's hard to do here. please at least try a Narcotics anonymous meeting. and I stress the anonymous. you have the power and can defeat this demon. My prayers and good wishes go out to you. peace to you.

lay off the drugs and hang on there try not 2 do anything stupid in the meantime

you feel like shit because all of the serotonin in your brain is gone for awhile. that's why you get that rush from molly, all that serotonin flowing..

obviously, don't take anymore, a, it's a complete waste of good drugs as you're not getting any effect from it, and b, your body is screaming for a break..

do not, and i repeat, DO NOT ENTERTAIN THOUGHTS OF KILLING YOURSELF TRIPPY.. DON'T DO IT.. this sucks and all, i've been there, done that, and ending your life is surely not the answer.. as bleak as things look now, once you get a few days clean, you'll start to feel much better, about yourself, and your situation..

here's a pretty good read on a few things you can do to help get the serotonin levels back to normal, i'm sure you know of them, but at this point, i don't think you're thinking clearly..

http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/showthread.php?t=108415

and hey trippy, maybe try and find someone to give the rest of your stash to for a few days who won't give you anymore until you're in a better space.
don't care who it is, just get it away from you, now. don't flush it, just find someone trustworthy who will hold on to it for a few days, week, or w/e until you're thinking right again..

racerboy71 said:

and hey trippy, maybe try and find someone to give the rest of your stash to for a few days who won't give you anymore until you're in a better space.
don't care who it is, just get it away from you, now. don't flush it, just find someone trustworthy who will hold on to it for a few days, week, or w/e until you're thinking right again..

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I only have 1.7g left and that's going bye bye tonight, honestly I need to check into a rehab or I'm going to end up killing myself. Should I just turn myself in?

Trippy Mayne said:

I only have 1.7g left and that's going bye bye tonight, honestly I need to check into a rehab or I'm going to end up killing myself. Should I just turn myself in?

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can you have someone come and stay with you for the next few days?

Trippy Mayne said:

I only have 1.7g left and that's going bye bye tonight, honestly I need to check into a rehab or I'm going to end up killing myself. Should I just turn myself in?

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i wouldn't be turning myself in, unless that's something you'd be doing with a clear head...

and dude, seriously, try not to do anymore of it.. i know, it's super hard of course, but it'll only make you feel that much shittier, and deplete more of the needed chems in your brain, and only prolong the agony...

you could always walk into the er at a local hospital and tell them you need help, that is always an option..

Skuxx said:

Tolerance builds quick for mdma. You need to get some food in your system and sleep my friend. Your mental state seems pretty fucked up right now.

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My mental state is BEYOND fucked up, I'm going crazy. I feel like I'm having a psychotic episode honestly. After about the 4th day of this molly binge that's when I knew things were going to go down hill but I didn't expect them to go this far. I realized things were bad when I couldn't stop redosing. I've done a whole ounce (28.12g) minus 1.72g I have left in 11 days. I'm doing nearly 3 grams a day, the highest dose being around 4.5g
how am I still alive? What's the LD50?

racerboy71 said:

i wouldn't be turning myself in, unless that's something you'd be doing with a clear head...

and dude, seriously, try not to do anymore of it.. i know, it's super hard of course, but it'll only make you feel that much shittier, and deplete more of the needed chems in your brain, and only prolong the agony...

you could always walk into the er at a local hospital and tell them you need help, that is always an option..

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That is something I would not be doing with a clear head considering that I'm only 22 and have 15 years + at Federal Prison. I CANNOT NOT DO IT!!! You don't understand like, there is no possible way, I just took 2 grams about 40 minutes ago (all orally) and still feel nothing, except a calm hear rate. I can't fucking stand this shit

What's the LD50?

Trippy Mayne said:

That is something I would not be doing with a clear head considering that I'm only 22 and have 15 years + at Federal Prison. I CANNOT NOT DO IT!!! You don't understand like, there is no possible way, I just took 2 grams about 40 minutes ago (all orally) and still feel nothing, except a calm hear rate. I can't fucking stand this shit

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i'd seriously think about going to the er, or look into a rehab that can take you tonight.. that's about all i got trippy..

and of course you are no longer feeling the drug, that's the way molly works.. i tried doing some a few months ago, about 3 days apart, and didn't feel poop the second day..

ld 50 of mdma...


Per the MSDS to save you time, 40mg/Kg for rats LD50 (oral). Or for an average 170lb. human male, slightly over 3g.

racerboy71 said:

i'd seriously think about going to the er, or look into a rehab that can take you tonight.. that's about all i got trippy..

and of course you are no longer feeling the drug, that's the way molly works.. i tried doing some a few months ago, about 3 days apart, and didn't feel poop the second day..

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I could give 2 flying fucks If I die right now, I HATE LIFE. Fuck all of this. It's worthless. If I'm gonna die atleast let me go how I wanna go, and that would be on this drug. But it seems god has other plans seeing how I'm not dead yet. If I wasn't such a pussy I would do it myself, but I just can't bring myself to doing it.

racer is right, go to the hospital! they will evaluate your mental state and most likely baker act you. then they will not discharge you until they find a treatment center for you to admit yourself to.

on second thought..if you have warrants that isn't even an option is it..i don't know but if it is that is your best bet imo. be safe dude please don't end your life over a molly binge.

racerboy71 said:

ld 50 of mdma...


Per the MSDS to save you time, 40mg/Kg for rats LD50 (oral). Or for an average 170lb. human male, slightly over 3g.

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Why am I not dead yet? I did around roughly 5 grams 2 days ago and a whole ounce in 11 days after tonight

Trippy Mayne said:

I could give 2 flying fucks If I die right now, I HATE LIFE. Fuck all of this. It's worthless. If I'm gonna die atleast let me go how I wanna go, and that would be on this drug. But it seems god has other plans seeing how I'm not dead yet. If I wasn't such a pussy I would do it myself, but I just can't bring myself to doing it.

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if you were a pussy you'd be dead already!