Alright i don't even know why the fuck i am bothering posting this anymore. No matter what I do I seem to fail every time at growing. I somehow managed to nearly kill my 3 auto seedlings, but they seemed to be okay, then i made another mistake and I'm pretty sure they're all goners. The motavation seedling is still okay, topped it and somehow clipped off a fan leaf?!(Is that even possible?) Without question i went and ordered 2 more seeds off the Attitude, a BlackBerry feminized, and a free Sour Cream feminized. The black berry looks pretty awesome, I am hoping they will just finish really late, like the beginning of December. If this is too far fetched and simply not possible please let me know. I am hoping they'll be all purple and what not considering it will be so close to winter. Also still plan to have some of the previous plants yield, that is if my friend doesn't overdose on something before then.
Lately i've been thinking a lot and have developed somewhat of a theory with growing. Most people seem to think of it in technical terms, IE how much nutrients, lighting, watering etc etc. But then there are the growers who look at it from a spiritual point in terms of how much love you are giving your plants and what sort of good vibes you may or may not bring to them as well. Simply put i'd say i am kind of a lazy stoner, don't do shit with my life right now and general just induldge too much with cannabis, cigarettes and other drugs. It's real easy to notice when you're over doing it, starts out really enjoyable blazing all the time, smoking cigarettes, and eating shitty food, but soon it just turns to shit and the depression will start to set in. Exercise is really the only way to counter-act much of these bad habits. I use to be a hardcore jogger, at least for a few months i was. I ran 5 miles almost every day for a good 4-6 months. Easily you could call it an addiction. Also I'd do about 100 pulls ups in a day, sit ups and also push ups. Needless to say i was nice and cut, but i smoked entirely too much dank, looked in the mirror way too much and pretty much just counter acted a lot of good habits with bad ones. At some point it felt like i was far more depressed doing all that shit than not doing it, which is true and for the simple fact that over doing anything at all will lead to the side effects of addiction and withdraw. Ok back to my original point, I was like 160 lbs then and now I'm about 210, I obviously quit running a while ago, but i still smoke dank and cigarettes, only now I have a Gold's Gym membership and tomorrow am hoping to cut off the cigarettes and weed for a while, and also never look at the mirror. My theory is that ultimately the positive energy i'll receive from working out and not over indulging in the drugs and cigarettes, will allow more positive energy to be given to my plants. And actually have something to show for a harvest
