I've always been a pretty solid dude, usually walk around 6'3", 205-210-ish, and actually have the frame to carry another 10-20lbs. I do a physical job, and eat like a horse.. scratch that.. 2 horses..and never gain weight (ladies get jealous.. Lol) I drink too much Monster, but that's nothing new.. I've always loved to cook and eat, but the last few months I've just not had an appetite AT ALL! Sometimes I just eat just cause I know I NEED to.. I know what you're probably thinking.. so what? You don't over eat anymore and that's a problem? But I'm fucking MELTING! I get on the scale almost every morning, but skipped some days until this morning. 168.. wtf? Almost 10lb in a week, and 50lbs in about 6 months.. but still strong as an ox. I don't really feel bad, but I do get nauseous on a empty stomach sometimes. Had a pretty bad dizzy spell in the shower few days ago and saved fainting by doing controlled breathing. I've only fainted once ever (few years ago after physical trauma) Weed doesn't help my appetite. I've gone a few days now without smoking and feel no different. So I guess it's not hurting my appetite either. I smoke tobacco, but no other drugs or alcohol. Idk wtf is up folks. I came here to vent, cause I don't want my family to see me concerned. Everyone is riding me to see a doctor cause they are concerned with the noticeable weight loss. I'm not going to go. I'm just that stupid. Really. I don't want to hear something is wrong with me, cause I don't want to have to face it. Just last night, I pretty much diagnosed myself as manic depressive.. I read the symptoms and it made me start to cry. I fit the bill 100%- besides self harming. Do you guys think mental Illness could be the underlying cause, and I just never recognized it? Or does it sound more like a physical health issue? Sorry for the long post, just wanted to get all that off my chest.