So I boxed up what stuff I could yesterday...clothes n all that....pretty much ready to move....
Don't know exactly what's gonna hppn w me yet...I mean I know for the next couple months ill b rentin the upstairs off my buddy n savin $$ for a place of my own but idk where its gonna b yet I hvnt even had a chance to look really....cldnt afford a full fledged move rite now anyway all this hpppnd so fast...I'm glad its close to over tho...she's been a really miserable person for ME to b around for a long time now...I got this ball rollin on the job advancement at work...but it absolutely requires me to quit smokin weed...its a "Licensed" job w big pay and mandatory yearly physicals. ...but I'd have to give up a lot of "me" to have that too...idk what to do.....I'm torn bigtime......in my area its a flat out given I could grow a little and be self supportive....I mean I've got two ppl that would take it all in one shot ata price I'm more than happy w....ona set up w 8plants a run...decent size plants ya know 3-4ozs each...I could take that pull n add it w a lil part time job for the lights off hours n Mr.Vega could prolly b happy livin a life like that.....this job I'm goin for at work yeah its great n all but I'd have to give up weed for good....like until I retire anyway....idk if I'm ready to do that or not......
I mean just when I thought I had somthin fuckin good goin n thought all this kinda bullshit was behind me.....BAM!!!....."here ya go Vega...lets see what u can do w this hand....uve done so well w all the other bullshit hands uve been dealt it got boring for a minute there...had to get u back in the game"....
I mean what the fuck?!?!.....Will I ever pay off all the shit I've done?!?!....is that what this is about?