So I had a surprise drug test on Tuesday for a potential job. Normally it wouldn't matter because I always have synthetic urine but this was an oral swab. I've never had this before and am certain it will come back positive. This means I don't get the job and more financial hardship. I decided I would just stop smoking until either business picks up or I land a full time job.
Tonight, my wife says to me, "I think you should smoke tonight. You are way too on edge and it's just not healthy for you."
I'm like, WTF, right? But then sat down and thought about my day and realized, she was right. I had someone be a pretty huge dick to me today and I let it piss me off to the point the point where I was thinking about exacting revenge on the idiot. That's not me at all and I am embarrassed. Typically, I would have been high at the time this occurred and, I'm sure, it would have rolled right off. Today was only day four of not smoking. This shit sucks...