okay, so i didn't get there, nearly, but i did not break through.
the general suggestion was not to do it in my friends room, but rather outside, because he has black walls covered in chalk drawnings/phrases, and that it was overstimulating.
so we headed to a spot where you can catch the sunset and chill. not only was it a very windy day, but none of us took a light... (insert typical internet "Fail") so my friend goes back to his house to get one, he arrives, without testing the lighter mind you, with a one that hardly works. so, not only was it windy, we were using a light that was 98% finished.
i was almost there, i could feel it. the threshold was almost tangible, yet i was too heavy. i was being draw, by something, something that wanted me extracted from this world. i thought i hit it well enough, but it surely wasn't enough. a slight pity, but nothing lost as i will be trying this again on friday, in a less windy environment.
when we arrived to his house after chilling at the stop, i hit what was left in the pipe with a new lighter indoors and it was the same affect. things went blurry, as if it was about to take off, then it stopped, receded, and all i felt was a tremendous force, one that overshadowed gravity.
i loved what little experience i had, and now that all the apprehensions are gone, i will love when i get there.