You’re response made the most sense in clearing this up for me, so thanks for that, I have come to the conclusion that even if I was ripped off, which I’m not entirely sure anymore, than it isn’t what it’s cracked up to be my media and word of mouth, my confusion lies in my inability to understand why people suck dick for this stuff when it wasn’t the greatest high I’ve ever felt for less... controversial drugs, my reason for trying it in the first place came from physical abuse I went through as a child, my stepdad broke my collar bone when I was about 7 or 8 while high on coke and for so long I wanted to blame the drug “he’s a good person but he made poor choices” I wanted so badly to try coke because I’m a very peaceful easygoing person, and I was under the assumption that coke would turn me into an impulsive monster, but it didn’t, in fact it did the opposite, I felt creative and took some really cool photos, I felt comfortable and somewhat relaxed, I wanted it to turn someone like me, with very good self control, into someone irrational, so I could justify his actions, so I could think that what he did could happen to anyone, so I could forgive him, I also grew up kind of poor due to the funds this addiction took from my family, but I didn’t feel a strong desire to do it again, and I didn’t crash hard like health class told me, this experience opened a huge can of worms for me, but I’ve decided that he was just a piece of shit, coke had nothing to do with his actions as he would beat me while sober too, I thought maybe something was wrong with me for not feeling that way, or maybe I truly had shitty coke, in any case I think it’s logical for me to say, what I was told and taught to believe, isn’t very truthful
