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Sustain

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I've found in my 61 years to observe, tally, and pass.
I've stepped into peoples lives and because of it they're dead, if I'd kept to myself they would still be alive.
If I care I'm vulnerable and some times it's best left alone.
I take my days 1 at a time, try to not carry a grudge and the hardest part, forgive my self.
I get up in the morning and smoke me a bowl of Sativa followed by indicas and Hybrids.
I'd rather smile but it's easier to laugh at life and the f##ked stuff that came with it for me because
that's what stole my being and a normality in life most take advantage of..
Maybe since I'm close to retirement I'll... stops self.. Wow. taking acid hummmm .
Do you just smoke pot now? No trips since 1981? Have you ever thought perhaps a trip on shrooms might set you right? It's been 33 years. If its healthy for you go for it. I think you're problem is there's a part of you that wants it to be fair and you cant just be upset about it. I base that off very little info... mostly this paragraph that I just read. I see a lion crushed to his knees by his own weight. I can't imagine what you've been through, not just the war, but you gotta smile every moment or you're mocking your own luck of being alive. You're 61, my grandfather had a heart attack at 47, hes 83 now. You dont have any idea whats in store for you, death will take you... and you will know who you are when it takes you... so dont worry about that... but dont ever go chasing death, its chasing you down already and hes an asshole. He takes without care, dont make it easy on the bastard.
 

Sustain

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Oh last thing I hate republicans!!!
I hate 'em both. The two sides are a distraction from the real problem.

I really hate republicans I've noticed, they are waaaay more stubborn than demos.


So I guess that means I'm a Democrat? But I'm not.... lol.
 

dirtsurfr

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Okay one more one last.. till later
Yea I only smoke now, Just crawled out of a booze bottle 3 years ago and no more cigs either.
Death?? He better bring a lunch LOL!!
 

Sustain

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Okay one more one last.. till later
Yea I only smoke now, Just crawled out of a booze bottle 3 years ago and no more cigs either.
Death?? He better bring a lunch LOL!!
I'm saying that paragraph sounded pretty unhealthy of a way to live. Like you're making it easy on death. Dont give a shit. Part of being alive is being vulnerable. Being hurt. You cant know love without knowing hurt. Like... the longer you go without new hurt, perhaps the more old hurt hurts and new love is lessened?
 

kinetic

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You cant know love without knowing hurt.
You don't have kids I'm betting. Giving birth didn't hurt me one bit, but that moment I met my kid I realized a love you can't describe to someone that hasn't experienced it. My kid knows that daddy's love is expansive. Love can permeate all. And yes I understand you'r trying to talk about dichotomy and appreciating day because of night.
 
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