Doer

...not goodbye at all. I'm losing focus here - just need to scale back! Getting behind on important stuff, which could eventually lead to losing net access

...sorry, last bit here. I know the weeping, it's hard to explain. Magnificent musical works hit me at that core level, like sympathetic vibration.

...hey man, I might make an email address to give to some folks here. Time to start focusing more on practical matters in life. Kinda suck because there are some exchanges that have been great - but they don't pay the bills.

I wanted to mention the blue pearl idea. Does it make sense if I say that I can't 'hold it'?

"Maya runs when we chase." Man, for so long now I've held the opinion that the Holy Spirit (and by any other name) is shy. Then on to Supra? It's interesting that depths are really heights

Also, you've said "careful" a few times, and I've noticed. I don't want to get back to that 'loose canon' I was and fck things up. I suppose I am saying this because I haven't 'asked' for any of this. (that I am consciously aware of, anyway)

...well, I appreciate all that you've posted. I should 'disclaimer' and say that I don't necessarily feel as though I've attained any level of 'x'. I can only relay experiences. I have a really hard time buying in to anything. The 'mystic' term that was applied recently is something that has to sink in. It was from a trusted individual with many years in academics (in a discussion with a few PhDs). Idealist, that's another word for it I guess. But I have inadvertently freaked a few people out by knowing their names before actually meeting them, etc. I know that 'ego' can have these seeming precognitive occasions, though. I'm posting this just to 'lighten' the load of the subject matter. I feel like 'the fool' most of the time. But I've come around the bend, and am staring at the world...waiting, thinking it out.

...thanks. Wu Wei comes to mind again - "get out of your own way".

...that's awesome, thanks for posting that.

For quite some time now I've been in a near constant state of meditation (it seems). I just break away from a more normal consciousness, inward toward vision experiences. Archetypal dreams, etc. I remember once seeing this hand up in the sky in a dream. An open hand, palm up, which closed eventually - but very calmly and slowly. It was a very peaceful one for sure. I've hovered near the sun - that one really hit me, I leaned instantly toward the idea of pride. I had to remind myself that it was an experience of seeing the center. Leopards in the desert walking around white rectangles, and on and on...

...just a short form of esoteric. I haven't done much more than shrooms and ganja, haven't had any kind of real initiation on a physical level (other than something like shamanic illness). Though, the term mystic has been applied - and I was within hearing distance, let's say I've been around many of these types of individuals, for certain. Can you explain a little about your experience at 21?

...ah. So you've been studying this eso stuff for a while then?

...hey man, here's a quick question for you - if you don't mind What was with your Russian conference in the first place? Naturally, I'm curious now.

...I just noticed my linked image came down, maybe a bit of a 'controversial' site. Like I said, I can usually take out some nifty stuff from the conversations in there. I'm not much for tin hats, etc.

Here's what prompted me to ask about the left arm on that carving.

"The dynamics of the Self and the individuation process is also indicated in the alchemical circulatio, which refers to a continuous circulatory ascending and descending development over time, linking the heights and the depths of being."

...cool :)

Mercury is related to the throat chakra - in this description you can 'see' the sexless nature of spirit. Breath, Pneuma, Speech is born of the 'mother organ' - the throat. There's a shivalingam reference in that the breath 'penetrates' the larynx, and voila, the 'wor(l)d'.

I just found this throat chakra idea, actually. It created a bit of a VNS 'holy sht' response in me! Now that I've settled it's like "well, duh" :lol:

...not the biggest fan of this website, but I thought this was cool:

http://www.godlikeproductions.com/sm/custom/e6d3639b8c.jpg

...here's one:

"Mercury causes things to join. He is in this sentence, the doer, principle of action and object of transformation"

...Hey man, that's an awesome carving! I looked it up and found that it's from Rockefeller in NY. Now I can't stop looking at the waves and diamonds under him Does the band on his left arm signify a rotation of sorts?

...on it's way like an answer for dark energy

Happy New Year, "non" Doer!

...yeah man, doing alright. Had a tough past few days but got set straight

...hey Doer, I hope all is well!

...gonna be outta here right away. And, occasionally over the holidays I'll pop in. In case I don't see you, "just" in case, Happy Holidays! I've been having some fun here with these discussions Thanks!