I've loved bodybuilding since I was a kid, still follow it, still lift occasionally. I've had so many opportunities to get a on a cycle from friends but always chickened out. When I did finally decided, I started my first test only cycle but stopped after week 4. I know that wasn't a good idea. I finally came to realization after 20 years that unless you're a pro athlete there is no reason.
Most friends and people I knew that did it were trying to make up for something in their life. Whether it was confidence in themselves, they suffered from low self esteem, wanted to be noticed people/women. Whatever their reason was "to me" was the wrong reason. There is too many things that can go wrong with the body that it finally sunk in it's not for me. This is coming from someone who knows how much studying it takes to do it as safetly as possible. I mean many many months and hours of research before even thinking about doing it. Not taking joe shmos word on youtube which I've seen many do.
Another thing I noticed over 20 years is steroids "can" magnify who you are depending on which ones you take or the combinations. If you are a naturally high testosterone driven manic who's always looking for trouble, it's going to make you even more dangerous. If you're someone who bottles up his emotions, has dark thoughts, hates the world, "it could" make you do something you never thought you would do. I've seen men cry or go into rages due to the constant hormonal changes.
Even with that said I still ponder the thought to do a couple cycles just to see what my frame looks like look big n full. I have the genetics n frame as that was what lead me to want to try it in the 1st place. I had so many trainers over the years who did PED's and some that did not tell me they wished they had my frame n genetics.